spare parts.

I am feeling quite challenged as of late. How? wondering if i am doing all that God is asking me to do.I am sooo certain that i am where I am supposed to be.but, lately I am just challenge by the 'part' of my life Christ does have...and bothered by the the fact that it is only part. I say that He is my everything... and it is true the He is... but then... there's this part of my that just wants to do my own thing. I know I am not the only one out there. When Christ says...give everything... pick up your cross and follow me... Do we take Him seriously?
We have made 'church' sooooo easy. Pick up a bible and read through it... what is God saying? When do we take the time to listen? I listened to a short sermon from Francis Chan the other day... from when he spoke at breakforth. This is what he likened it to...
It's like telling my daughter to go clean her room... and she comes back later totally excited... 'hey dad, I memorized what you said to me... you said.."go clean your room". I even had some friends over to discuss what it would look like to clean my room and everything!
Just doesn't sound right does it? Yet is what we do often much better than this??
I'm tired of saying I want to go and not going.... but I am not sure what it looks like to go. Am I willing even?
And I don't mean go... as in go somewhere... but go and do the things Christ asked us to do... to make disciples... to follow Him, in joy and in suffering.... to give Him every part of my life. All of it... not just parts.