math.

I have this funny little setting on my gmail account. Oneday... a LONG time ago. maybe even years... no definitely years... so long a go i don't remember when.. i set it... probably thinking it was a brilliant way to exercise my brain... or play a really horrible joke on myself every time i want to send an e-mail after 11pm. The setting? 5 "simple" math questions. Addition subtraction and multiplication. Things like 11 X 7 or 5 + 13 and such. I say "simple" in "quotations" because... when I try and send a simple e-mail at night... and this stupid math box pops up... and i HAVE to do them... or I can't send my e-mail.. WELL... after a 16 hour day including a stressful 8 hour work shift...math just isn't "simple" no matter how "simple" it is. The most hilariously awful part of the whole thing, is that I have had this setting on for forever... and it surprises me EVER TIME!! And here I am blogging about it.. instead of changing the setting... so I can let out a heavy frustrated laughing sigh towards...myself... the next time I try and send an e-mail after 11pm. Why do you think this is?! Because I have yet to think of somewhat decent answer that doesn't involve the state of my sanity.
and that.
is that.

Shout out from beautiful Mexico! (this is for you Elena!)

I failed facebook security once.
The second time I tried.. the power in the internet went out.
Third time I tried. Explorer shut down.
Forth time´s a charm?

Today... I made my own tortilla (corn tortilla)
A couple days ago... I ate Rabbit.

It thunder showered every night.

I think I like it here.

Mexico.
is.
Beautiful.

P.S. resorts... are not truely Mexico. Check out real Mexico. I reccomend it.

Dear children,

I am sorry. I am sorry that you have to grow up in a world that constantly tells you that you are not good enough. I am sorry for the messages you hear of what you need to do to be loved. I am sorry for the pressure you feel to be earn love, whatever the cost. I am sorry that you are pressured into doing things that children shouldn't do. I am sorry things that shouldn't even exist are so accessible to you. I hope that someday you will know full well how much your Father in heaven loves you, desires you... delights in you. I hope that you will soon discover that you do not need to do anything to earn his love. I hope you find all of your satisfaction in Him who satisfies. I hope that you run far far away from the lies the world begs you to believe. I wish I could keep you all safe, away from these horrible things... I wish I could prevent you from ever believing a single lie. But... the truth is... this world is an ugly place. And I know that you will be hurt... I know that you will choose things that aren't the best for you. I know that you will look for love in places that only offer cheap conditional love. But please... know this... the Father in heaven is waiting for you... with arms wide open... waiting and longing for you to return running to Him. Please know... that no matter where you have been or what you have done HE will always accept you and love you... unconditionally. Please know that His love never fails. His love is true love. His love is real love. Please, the love you are looking for... it is waiting for you.