any day now.

remember how I told you something exciting is happening.
well.
i worked out the ratio... there is an 11 - 17 % chance of this 'something exciting' to actually happen.
my hope for this 'something exciting' to actually happen... is inversely related to the chances of it actually happening. as in... my hopes are about 83-89%.
but.
I can tell you any day now. if those chances have increased heaps or if it won't happen at all.

i am nervous.


this is my... i am so nervous face....

the suspense is killing me...

something exciting is happening...
maybe.
but I can't tell you yet.
because I don't even know yet.
BUT
when it happens... you will be the first to know... (besides my family of course!)
maybe I can give you an itty bitty hint.


- dont get too worried... unfortunately the 'something exciting' does not entail going back to Africa (as much as I would LOVE to go back!). BUT it maybe quite possibly has to do something with faces such as these precious ones.

i'll keep you posted.

(ps. photo credit I THINK to Brent Earwicker... one of the missionaries we connected with in Uganda)

reflections of a year gone past

i just began the beginning of my 23rd year here in this world...(as in 12 minutes ago)
funny how fast the celebration of my day of birth came and went.

i always thought i would be way further than am at 22 years old. which is cause for just a twinge of angst. but i know that where i am is where i ought to be... even if it differs from where i thought i ought to be.

6 days ago... my roommate (thanks Lanah...) pulled out my very first legit grey hair. white actually. i was a touch... mmm... what do i say... appalled?... shocked?... disappointed?... distressed... isn't 22 too early for white hairs?

a year ago... i just moved to regina... and one of my friends organized a little birthday party for me... about 10 people were there. looking back on that day... it was kind of awkward. I mean, here all these people were celebrating my birthday and they barely knew me and i barely knew them. i had only been here for a month at that point. hardly grounds for a birthday party that large. now... these girls are some of my closest friends. (particularly lanah, who remembers the awkwardness of handing me the card she made to the girl she didn't really know... now... close friends and practically inseparable we are)

i thought i would be married and have at least one child by now. i am not. not even close.
but... i am ok with that!

it has been an amazing year. truly. incredible. i made so many new valuable friendships. and i have grown in SO many ways since last year.

kinda neat to think about.

though, i wouldnt mind a hold on those white hairs for a at least a few more years.