on a related and unrelated note.

today was neat.

you know how I am stoked to have a job where people are passionate and excited about the same things? and the fact that there is soooo much purpose in what we're doing? well today was neat because I also get to share my faith with one of the ladies I work with. We were having a slow day. she came up to me (picture a super passionate lady from singapore) and says this... out of the blue. 'you are christian?' me 'yes' 'like really christian?' 'yes' 'ok, let's pray'. And she grabbed my hand and started praying. right there. in the middle of the mall. she prayed nearly the EXACT same thing as I did on my way to work in my car just hours before, down to specific numbers. THEN within half an hour, i got the first 2 sponsors of the day. and a LOT of great promising conversations from then on. amazing? i think so. God? Absolutely.
Anyway, I loved that we got to pray together. And I love that God answers prayers.

in a completely unrelated note...
I am transferring all my pictures over to a new computer. that's when i realized i have over 50 000 photos.
what do you do with that many photos?
I want to go through them all... but... it's such a daunting task! Any suggestions?

on another note.
today.... i got a library card. i am excited. yet not. i love to own books. to lend books. to write in books. to see books go from new to wrinkled. to crack the spines. all of those joys i will not experience via the library. YET... i love the smell of old books. i love to make up stories as to where the books have been and whose read them and what those funny stains on the pages are from. and... sometimes i like to not spend money. and... old books look way cooler sometimes.
what do you think? old or new?

so, you're probably wondering what I am doing with myself since I quite my job right? I knew you were. so I will tell you.

I am working as a fundraiser for World Vision.

So what does that mean? Well, it means the I get to learn all about what World vision is and what they do. Primarily, the sponsorship program. We will have 2 booths set up in 2 malls. Just to tell people about the sponsorship program, and hope that as many people as possible sponsor the precious children. (check it out. www.worldvision.ca)

It is so so so so so good, and refreshing, to work with people who are there because they are passionate about what they do. It's not just a job. It's a way to make a difference. It is people coming together for a common purpose, because they love people, love children, and want to make a difference in the world. THIS is what I have been looking for in a job. THIS is confirmation I am going in the right direction. TO work out of my passions and desires and the things that tug on my heart... and THAT be my motivation! Not the fact that I have to do this job so i can make the money so that i can do the things I'm excited about.

So why am I getting paid? I wondered how they could do that myself, but we talked about that. The fact that they pay fundraisers all across Canada to do these campaigns actually does more, for more communities, by getting more sponsors than they would have simply by scraping the bottom of the bucket trying to pull together fundraiser willing to invest the time in such a campaign. The fact that people need to make money is no small fact. So, it's win win. And that is how it works.

I love doing things I am passionate about.
I love it.
I love it.
I love it.

love hate relationships cause dilemmas.

I dislike Love Hate relationships. Mostly for the matter that I cannot decide whether to love or hate. And I terribly dislike sitting on the fence. It's rather uncomfortable. Here is my dilemma. can you guess? It's rather anticlimactic.

Facebook. Yup. Just typing that word is kind of satisfying, only on account of that little red squiggly line under it that tells me its not a real word yet. phew.

About a month ago I said to myself that I would love love love to delete facebook. But then again. I would hate to delete facebook. Love hate love hate love hate. dilemma.

so why would i delete it?
1) to push better, deeper, realer, less virtual friendships. (you know... to plan and invite via telephone and face to face rather than creating an event hoping people see it)
2)to get rid of time waster. seriously. news feed. status updates.peoples pictures i don't even know. i read them. and i don't need to. (though i have gotten better... i can still subdue to its time wasting temptations.)
3) to stop filling my mind with random and pointless information about 500 different people that i wouldn't really care otherwise. like the fact that you're eating popcorn. or that you really like rainbows. or that you're waiting for a package. or whatever it may be.
4) to stop telling everyone else pointless and random information about my own life. like the fact that i am eating popcorn or the fact that i really like rainbows, or even the fact that i am expecting a package.
- to not have serious personal conversations on the not so serious impersonal facebook chat.
5) i really don't care what superhero, twilight character, movie star i am. i am not any of those thank you very much.
6) i really don't want to play farmville or fish tank whatever.
7) poking. really?
8) seeing events all the time that you can't go to or weren't invited to and kinda wish you were. or worrying about people who would be sad if you didn't/couldn't invite them.

i feel like i could go on. but for sake of time and your boredom i won't.

so then... why wouldn't i delete it?
1) out of town/country friends. so easy to keep in touch.
2) pictures! as much as they waste my time... i really do love looking at them! and its an easier way to share pictures!
3)...
4) should i take this as a sign?

so hate far outweighs the love. but the love ones... are biggies.
i don't know what i should.

so.

bah.

i think i will. or maybe not. that is where i am at.

Imagine... If i didn't have facebook? I would have so much extra time. I would listen in class more (maybe). Instead of needing to waste an hour and going to facebook, i could use that hour to walk, or scrapbook, or read, or anything else that is thousands of times more productive.

I think i may be mostly convinced.

What do you think? Love? Hate? Should I or shouldn't I?